So i was thinking the other day why my relationships never really last..whats the problem..is it me what am i doing wrong...do i smell? God punish u there for saying maybe...what exactly is it..am not clingy, not high maintenance or materialistic..i no too worwor...so what is the problem? Am not over-dependent,not money hungry..i even like football!!!!
Is it because i dont like sex ? ding ding ding ding ding.......alas i've found the answer.
Okay dont get me wrong it's not like i hate sex, yes i can tolerate the occasional kpanshing like once a month and i like to held and touched and all every now and then,when i feel like it..u cant just come and grab my waist anytime agro is catching u cause i can knee u in the groin.....but sex is a drag...for me sha..
I once told one dude that if we go out we wont have sex and he replied..."what am i going out with u for if i can't have sex with u,do i want to be kissing your cheeks abi is it your face i want to be looking at?, if thats the case ive seen finer faces"Chaineke!!!...no this one no be chineke matter..na chai plus chineke cause chineke no fit carry that kain insult..
I remember the first dude i ever really liked and maybe loved...lets call him bomboi....Now bomboi looks alot like bow-wow thats why anytime i see a bow-wow video i get all tingly inside cause it reminds me of him and i so want to forget him..Now bomboi didnt know he had me in the palm of his hands back then,as in he cud blow air my way and id start shaking..thats how much i liked him..but for the 2 or so years we were wasting our time thinking we were dating i just felt like i was giving my all and bomboi couldnt care less.He had this non-challant attitude to the whole relationship and it just broke my heart...he'd ask me to come over and he'd totally ignore me all thru...hardly calls..excuses excuses excuses...i had to even beg this dude to touch moi..and i dont ever do that....
This one time when i came over...it was clear we were over but i still went around cause i just cant resist seeing him...only for bomboi to leave me downstairs with his friends and go upstairs to gaan put his zoom zoom in one chicks poom poom upstairs...i was downstairs with his friend and he was upstairs doing chooku chooku with this chick o..insult! when i confronted him he was like..he didnt know she'd come over and it was actually his friend who told him to tell me to come...yet again i say Chaineke!!!
I deleted bomboi's number,there's only so much a person can take,even as friends he showed that he didnt send me.
Then there's s.a sexy(4give me simply gorgeous)....hmm hmmm hmmm....he was lust in a 5ft 11 dark skinned body with a personality to match.Two weeks after we started going out i was alreayd saying "i love you"...sometimes ehn i can be daft...of course him he was just in it for some ass.so the whole i love you thing wasn't his cup of zobo....yet again...he had a nice personality,definately not boring..but he did and said somethings that really hurt me and after a while when i realised homeboy wasnt in it for the long run...i carried my size 43 legs and waka-ed..though it hurt me like sege...cause when i told him u berra step up or am out he was like..then be out...and ehn..no make the door jam ur leg on the way out....emi olaide omo baba mi....is ok.i left but i still had feelings for omo boy but i guess he didnt...i still like him though sha..he'll get his..
Then finally there was 'papa smurf'...he was probably the first dude who made me feel loved,the beginning was so sweet and all..we only needed ourselves..he understood the fact that i didnt want sex and he was okay with it..i thought i had died and gone to heaven..ironla...it meant i had to compensate with every other thing...but i was okay with that..cause he um..sha..he..well..he turned my pages sha....yes...
He'd come over to my crib and we'd do soft porn for mr. oyekusibe, he knew my family..i actually thought we'd get married sha..funny huh? I'd sleep and he'd stroke my cheek never minding the hideous snoring...and i was beautiful in anything with him..but at one point everything just fizzled...a lil less calls and visits and everything just went down south from there...i guess i wasn't as attracted to him as i thought i was plus the reason why my feelings probably fizzled was because his did first and so we jus went our seperate ways..but i keep asking myself..was it because of the sex? did he just get tired and was like which kain punishment be dis...he's a sweetheart and all..but i just dunno what happened sha...so yeah uv read about my relationships,am always attracted to people that dont give a damn bout me...sad huh and the ones that do am not...it's just so annoying..can't a sister just find a brother that'd be down for her..like sheesh...finding Mr. exschoolnerd is harder than finding osama bin laden.