Wednesday, 30 May 2007

I LOVE me some ME!!!

For far too long i've brought myself down with my own words.I know my pictures look good(its funny i can say that now,there was a time i couldnt look at my pictures without crying...they just showed someone with serious low self-esteem,not like i look finer now..but u can just see the confidence shining thru now..) anyways i just thought i didnt look that good in real life so i'd play myself down so when people get to meet me in real life they dont expect too much...

Someone once said before he met me with the way i'd describe my self he thought he'd come over and see shrek or something.

I am so tired of bringing myself down just so some assholes wont expect too much, i am too much...emi ma le gan o! who made them an authority on whats beautiful anyways,do they look good theirselves....and i have come to the conclusion that I AM FUCKING BEAUTIFUL....inside and outside.

I am not in denial neither am i trying to make myself feel good, believe me i know a whole lot of ways to go about that *wink wink*

And heres what i say to nay sayers and does who dont agree with me...i might not be attractive to u but i sure as hell am beautiful.

I am 6ft of chocolatey goodness,i am big bold and in ur face....i am most definately not lepa...neither do i ever intend to be....

i have big lovely mamary glands(breasts to you) that for too long i've been ashamed of...cause of the perverted stares but am happy with them now and you better get used to them cause they are not detachable or deflateable..or anything that ends with able...eatable..lol

I love my small derriere (ass to you) cause big things come in small packages..(well i like to think so..lol) i know i used to wish they were some sizes bigger and i constantly find myself staring at random female booty(i am not gay)...i have realised that i am more than my ass..and i've accepted it the way it is...maybe God has a reason for it..lol.even though he made every other part of my body big and this part small...he knows best...who knows how many accidents i might have caused...and so i find comfort in the words "Every dissapointment is a blessing.....so yeah i am more than my ass..and so if you choose not to get to know me cause of the size of my derriere then ur just one more person i dont want to know.

My legs...my skinny legs...."chicken legs" my brothers call them...i remember when i was too scared to wear short skirts cause i thought i had massive calves(yams to you)..but not anymore...they are not perfect but i love them all the same.I love my big feet that needs size 43 shoes..."Big foot" my classmates would tease me. Yes all the better to kick some ass with.

My love handles, i wonder why they are called that.Yeah they are there and they seem to be saying "We aint going nowhere, we aint going nowhere, we can't be stopped now"...but i've learnt to not cringe at their sight...

I have come a long way to bring myself down anymore...i am thru trying to fit into what people like.Its time to show who i am and find people who like me the way i am.Who appreciate my insides and outsides...

I have a wondeful personality and it shnes through....i was blessed with a beautiful mind..it might not be able to calculate math problems at the speed of light..but it sure is beautiful and a thing i am most proud of...

I stare at the mirror and i am loving what i see...i am so not perfect..yes i agree but hell who is? who defines what is beautiful? them magazines right...well here's what i say...Fuck em!....there's nothing like feeling good about urself...nothing can bring u down then.



please dont mind the payints!



Ehen before i go i want to introduce one yeye boy like this that just joined blogville...please show him some love @ http://anuu01.blogspot.com and anu please try and post something sensible..i know its not in ur nature to but just break out of the box...lol..

42 comments:

toby said...

in my own words. i'd say, that was so 1DAFUL. nice 1. keep it up. there's nothin' lyk appreciatin' one's self 'cos if u don't no one will.

kingsiju said...

Good to know u are done with LSE. i served my time too and now i'm happy i'm free. i express myself freely. lead teams and make things happen. u dont start living until u get over LSE. i know it. i was there. Laide, congrats!

יושה (Yosh) said...

way to go!

and lmao @ payints! gaaawwwdd ...roflol

TRAE said...

you look like francisca of big brother nigeria in this pic...definately one of my favourite pictures of you. peace!

Anu boy said...

come... bigfoot i go beat u ohhh, i go arrange you for blogsville ohh, anyhow.. its good to accept ones faith.. fuck what people think about you, and have you noticed something, peeps that criticize others are not even good looking, everyone has got thier down side, unlike me... yippie.. no down side, i am just tooo muchhhhhhhhhhh....
kai, next time throw them scally waggy piiiiants away, fine picsure, ogly piiiants...
nuv luv exxxxxxxx

Nigerican said...

just as India Arie is not her hair, u r not u're ass .Proud of u mama , we all need to realize we r all beautiful . Now can u pls tell my roomie that *roll eyes*, she's sooooo beautiful and doesent even know it.

exschoolnerd said...

@toby..true that

@king siju...yeah LSE is so not good..bad bad times..

@thnx..na only dat one u go see..u r turning into some kain ashewo oh..bt m liking it sha

@anu..u this area boy...no make them insuult me say i cary u enter blogville..better relax ur agebro sef...u hear!!! nonesense!

@trae...ewwww!!!! fransisca ke...anyways thnx sha..

@nigerican..thnx sweets..i am not my ass..lol @ ur roomie.

Anu boy said...

i am no agbero ohhh, nice quite guy like me... ex u better stop all this run down comments u make about me ohhh, or else where is the blogsville police sefuu

Ugo Daniels said...

Wow, ok, one after the other. Let me get a glass of juice, then come back and comment...ok, am back

I love da part of 'I am fucking beautiful-inside and outside', well...i need proff...lol!jst kiddin

You are really TALL for a gal. I've always have this thing wit tall gals. God, you don't know how it feels to have long legs entwine ya grinding waist in 'That Process'

Babes, you're looking fly in dat last pic. Dang dang!!! Ok, do yu mind being a second wife?. Trust me, i know how to take care of my own!...lol!

Seriously, though, always believe in yourself and dont ever wish you're someone else. You are meant to be exactly the way you are. You are unique and special. Aint nobody ever gon take dat away from you.

And dont ever say you dont like the way you are. When oyu learn to love yaself, trust me, ya better off by far.

Good thing you've learnt this without consulting any self-esteem counsellors. And i hope you'll always stay da same, cos there's something about yu that sets yu apart from da crowd and makes yu unique.

Gracias!!!

Bubbles said...

You go girl!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one can love u better than u love urself.

Pink-satin said...

damn some high self esteem all in our faces...Good for you girl..i used to be like that but now i love me..wahtever..and girl u are beautiful...and i didnt see the payint in d pics(lol)one love

Pink-satin said...

i just saw ugo's cooment...na wa 4 you sa!long legs entwined blah..blah...one love

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dolly said...

I love that Pic, can't believe you are that tall......wish I was

AN IBO DUDE'S CORNER said...

singing..... (well, not exactly)

u r not ur breast
u r not ur ass
u r not legs
u r not ur feeeet
u r the "fucking beautiful Ex-school nerd"

i really tried to make those words rhyme, but i did terrible. forgive me.

bottom line , u r stunning. love ur confidence

omohemi Benson said...

Loved this!
Like a wise saying I once heard, noone can make you feel inferior without your consent.

You are beautiful in every single way.

exschoolnerd said...

@anu boy..sharrap dere!!

@ugo..lol..this boy u are a case...long legs entwine ya grinding waist...lol...ashawo...why m i meeting too many ahsawo's lately...ur second wife...hmm..ill have to ask the akwa ibom stud about that oh..thnx for the compliment...

@bubbles..thanx sweets..truer words havent been spoken.

@pink-satin..thnx girlie..its baout time to get that esteem high....the payints are in d background...dnt mind ugo..

@dolly....thnx sweets.

@an ibo dudes corner....thnx for trying to make it rhyme....its the thot that counts.....

@omohemi...awwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!..love that saying too..thnk u..appreciate it!!!

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Simply Gorgeous said...

Ms...ex or should I call you Mrs. Yosh. You couldn't even stop to see if I was dead or alive... ehem. I see now you don't like me. Some friend. But babes you are beautiful inside and out. LOL.

Anonymous said...

I think you are lovely. Nice post.

Kaydee said...

Yeah!While me and Okunzbaby made U the S.I unit of beauty,i noticed that U don't think highly of yourself.When we met,u almost infected me with it.

36 INCHES OF BROWN LEGS said...

wonderfully and fearfully made (no lesbian intentions o)

lol @ payints, shey na ur own abi cousin Ts?? lol @ 'i am not my ass' u r funny girl!!

segunkadri said...

Hmmmmmmmmmm..........welcome to the Self Esteem Club...........and i would like to say you aint fat but phat.....meaning physical attractive..
congrats

Nilla said...

"i was blessed with a beautiful mind..it might not be able to calculate math problems at the speed of light..but it sure is beautiful and a thing i am most proud of..."

LOL!!

Yes oh, Missy you are beauriful!!!

How have you been? Good I hope.

chicala said...

good thing you love you..........nothing feels as good as that girl!
ok in btw, i'v jst added u on myspace, lol. Dont mind me o, i shld hav informed u on ur blog first. So if u see some strange 'black' girl adding you.................its me,lol!

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

you are absolutely gorgeous.. and i'm glad that you see that now too... about the size 43 feet.. what size is that... 11 or 12 cos no be only you get some serious long feet(i'm 5 ft 11 or 11 and a half so i can get away with it sha.. i hope.. lol)... i love the i am not my ass thing(i swear the funniest thing is that i was going to write a post about that last month or so... but never got around to it cos i had too much on my plate.. i don't have a big yansh either but which one concern me... i'm still cute.. and of course i might not be everybody's cup of tea but i sure as hell am mine... )babe with this post you wrote the story of many others.. we all have our little hangups.. i mean i absolutely hate my feet(cos of how big they are and how hard it is to find shoes.. but now that i have foot cyber sis in you.. the moment i land in Naija we're going shoe shopping for sure!!!.. lol... hopefully it won't be a carpenter who has to construct my shoes.. i remember when i was in naija.. my family used to make fun of me with that... )
you do have a wonderful personality.. you're one of most original and funny people my age on blogsville(of any age come to think of it).. i love the way your mind works... and i absolutely love reading your blog

i'm glad that you choose not to bring yourself down anymore cos you gotta love you.. you are fantastic and beautiful and funny and nice and beeeeriful.. so celebrate that mami... but please are those granny underwear hanging in the background?! lol.. i just bought my first pair of grannies in like 4 years oh... and oh my gosh.. they are so fantastic.. they're a lil big for me though but so bloody comfortable... and cotton.. in fact i'm now a granny fan(well to sleep in at least... lol) but what is this i'm hearing about your love affair with yosh?! please give me the koko cos only last week yosh was proclaiming undying blog love to me and teling me he wanted to go and see my family laspapi, soul and others to present some palm wine and do some traditional blog rites.. lol

(i know say anytime i come here i always leave some longass comments but no mind me sha.. i like you bebe(said in the most non-lesbian way possible.. lol)

Calabar Gal said...

YOu are a beautiful girl. Glad you've learnt to live with urself and love yourself even more.

Teediva said...

exactly. well said girl. love urself for u n dont give two what anyone else thinks. i like to think i'm a very good package, all in one kind of, and if anyone thinks my ass is too small or my legs are too skinny then they should just look the other way. my body, i'm not even sensitive about anymore. anything there is to yab, my brothers have yabbed. i even make fun of myself sometimes, but that doesnt mean i'll let anyone else look down on me over it. it pays to feel good n beautiful with urself, cos then u'll demand other ppl's respect. and if u're not going to let anyone look down on u, then no one will. nuff said. go girl!

laspapi said...

nerd- strong, beautiful words. I'm glad you've found the strength to love yourself. These are great words, great frame of mind.

Anyone wants ta marry Storm (ONB to the uninitiated) must send his job details, how much he earns, bank account details etc to my e-box.

The following is for you, nerd.Pls reach me if you're interested-

Home(Lagos)-based bloggers interested in appearing on the National Network programme, New Dawn with Funmi Iyanda, who's a blogger herself, to discuss the blogging phenomenon in Nigeria, on Thursday, June 7, should get in touch with laspapi through his blog or by e-mailing laspapi@yahoo.com

temmy tayo said...

6 foot?? I need to eat more beans.

exschoolnerd said...

@chicala..okie dokie..sweets ill add u.

@overwhelmed..u know i always love ur comments..i thorougly enjoy reading them too...

lol @ i don't have a big yansh either but which one concern me... i'm still cute...hahahaha

yeah em..some of em are granny panties...theres nothing like em...am not really a g-string..thongs fan like that....so got my granny panties...


dnt mind that yeye yosh oh...na on dis blogville that he picked anoda chick instead of me..take everythn he says with a pinch of salt....
i like u too sweets!!

@calabar gal and teediva...thank u o jare....ur words are much
appreciated.


@laspapi...ill holla at u.

@temmytayo...yes oh better start chowing them beans now....thnx for stopping by

kemi said...

Laide your pic is really nice and the apyints hey are one in town. You are one foine chic and dont worry i have no lezzie tendencies

exschoolnerd said...

thnx alot kemi...long time..missed ur comments.

sugarlomps said...

i read this n saw maself am the typical busty that pple make feel bad 4 dat
maself esteem was zero n thing was i didnt know it
i shld meet u

BiMbyLaDs** said...

LOVE U TOO MUCH.. O BURIFUL JARE.. NO MIND THEM HATERS/..!!

LurLar said...

The people that criticize pple about how ugly other pple look..they are the ones that are uglyminded.....that if u dnt look like Beyonce u r not beautiful. Abeg jare my sister u look beauiful. LMAO @ payints.

Ugo Daniels said...

Do you derive sadistic pleasure from posting intermittently, thereby depriving us of da pleasure of reading ya wonderful toris, eh this gal?...lol!

Anthony Arojojoye said...

Madam flasher. Been a while.Hw have u been?

Keep in touch.

exschoolnerd said...

@sugarlomps..sweets thnx for the comment..i read ur blog and i thought it was beautiful...

@bimbylads...thnx sweets..nice to have u back.

@lurlar..hmm uglyminded...thats so so true...i appreciate the words...do come bck!

@ugo...no be my fault jare..skool don start and i just got to sort out some stuff..ill post something very soon..am a blog addict u shud know its killing me more than u dat iv not posted anything...

@anthony...am good...sorry bout the flashing..no crdt at times...bt it wudnt hurt if ud holler though.

Pink-satin said...

hey girl...have u hrd abt the blogville idol thing...check out my page and 9ja opeke...get the hook up ok(copying cheetarah)

princess said...

"U are as beautiful as u feel". Heard that before?? Its true girl.
Thanks for dropping by my blog.
Keep up the self esteem ok.

Diva-sta said...

Brap it's all about the 6ft girly's (im 6ft as well) :P...LOVE yr blog..love the article..love everything...it's a shame i wished i felt that way bak wen i was 11-16...i used to get teased vicious ppl callin me ugli n dat..n den i just blossomef :) u BEAUTIFUL and gud u no it 2..dont eva let no1 put u down n say u ugli...tell em 2 goo look in a mirror...aah in a hype mood now...neways chek out ma blog xX

exschoolnerd said...

em@pink satin..will do
@ princess..thanx sweets for stopping by.

@diva sta...nice to meet another 6footer...yeah sweets they can say what they want...but as long as u feel good about urself thats all hat matters..thnx for stopping by ill check ur blog sweets..