i know i said i wasn't going to blog until after my exams...but i need to vent... seriously need to VENT.And the only other way i know how to vent makes me look crazy which is talking to nobody on my fone and letting it all out..
So my exam week has been hellish, i know kknow that when students fail there are always two reasons, its either the students fault or the bloody university's incompetence that causes it.Ever since thewy started shuffliong exam dates i knew there was going to be a problem.They have been holding exams for the past how many years and still they can't get their shit together and be organised for once.
I missed my paper yesterday!
The day before which was tuesday i had a paper from 4-6pm and had to rush home, they didnt inform us that they had shifted the time for our paper the next day.When i got home my friend calls and tella me another paper we are supposed to have on the 25th has been put the next day..that means i have two the next day now.
My first paper on the day was by 11 according to the timetable so i wasnt in a hurry to get to school.Afterall why have a timetable if it cant be followed, not all of us stay in school.
Its not even about me not waking up early cause i woke up by 5am that day and took my sleepy ass downstairs to go and do an assigment and type some stuff..i took my time cause i knew when the exam was.
I met up with my friend and we both got to school by l0:45, went to the exam venue, there weren't writing exams, we knew something was up, we started calling classmates, phones were switched off,we started panicking and started searching every possible exam venue.We finally found our classmates who said they had already finished the exam and it was shifted in the morning to 8:00am.
HOW COULD THEY DO SUCH A THING? HOW COULD THEY NOT INFORM ALL OF US, WHAT ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT DONT STAY IN SCHOOL? HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW? wHY WOULD THEY JUST CHANGE EXAM TIMES AS IT PLEASES THEM?
I went inside the hall angry to complain to some invigilators, one of them was like it wasn't her fault, then out of no where with happiness in her voice one of the women said "Ehn thats carry-over then'...i was boiling inside and almost insulted her but common sense prevailed.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT HURTS THE MOST?
I studies for this exam so bad, you know when uve read for an exam and you are actually happy to go into the exam hall and put down what you've read, a feeling i have never had before.The night before when i was revising, pupcy was asking me whether i was talking to myself...i was just so ready to do the exam, so excited, so sure of myself...only to find out i missed it by no fault of mine.
This is a discouraging start to my exams, and it reflected on my perfromance on my 2nd paper,i almost started crying in the hall if my friend hant pulled me out.I sucked it in for the whole of the day and when i got home i broke down in front of my mum and she told me not too worry.
I MEAN EVER SINCE EXAMS STARTED THE DATES HAVE NOT BEEN STABLE, EXAMS NEVER START ON TIME, THEY ARE FOREVER DISORGANISED.
I am just fed up and tired...and sad.If i could leave and start school somewhere else i wouldnt hesistate because they just fustrate all ur efforts, at the end of the day u feel drained and sad and angry and just downright mad.
But i know this is just the devils way to get me down so i can perform poorly in my other papers...but i am not going to let him win.I am going to put extra effort for my other papers and i know in the end i win come out the winner.