Sunday, 24 May 2009

I am tired.


Dictionary: leth·ar·gy (lĕth'ər-jē)

1.A state of sluggishness, inactivity, and apathy.
2.A state of unconsciousness resembling deep sleep.


Even as i type this i dont want to, i just want to sit and do nothing,worry about nothing,want nothing...

now the first definition totally sums up the way ive been feeling for a while now.I dont want to do ANYTHING.

how can i not want to write? for God sakes how can i not want to do the thing that gives me so much joy? that makes me forget all my problems? how can i not want to do that...how can i not want to update my blog? want to quit blogging? i told myself id still be blogging 20 years from now..thats how much i love writing,expressing myself,its been 6 years since i started..but updating my blog lately seems like such a chore...its used to be fun, it used to be the only thing i looked forward to..now i update once every two weeks...i remember when people used to tell me i updated my blog too much..now i feel like i can't even be bothered and i hate feeling like this.

I write for a popular magazine and i am supposed to send in two articles..but nothing comes to mind..nothing!

I have alot of projects in the works but i have lost the will to set things in motion, i dont know if its cause i am afraid i will fail woefully...that i dont even want to try...that i keep putting it off...

i just dont want to do anything anymore...i dont know whats happening to me.

i pick silly fights with my sweetrat! I think i am trying to sabotage myself..i am trying to spoil a good thing slowly...

i just find that i am moody...like i feel like i cant go on anymore..i guess life isnt finally taking its toll on me..wearing me down...i am tired.

39 comments:

Anonymous said...

And am anonymous reader is the first!

Anonymous said...

Just finished reading your post. What's wrong?! Think you need to get away from your environment, go on a vacation or something thank God there is a strike action so you have time. But whatever you do love, don't stop writing!

Anonymous said...

Just finished reading your post. What's wrong?! Think you need to get away from your environment, go on a vacation or something thank God there is a strike action so you have time. But whatever you do love, don't stop writing!

Anonymous said...

Just finished reading your post. What's wrong?! Think you need to get away from your environment, go on a vacation or something thank God there is a strike action so you have time. But whatever you do love, don't stop writing!

flabby said...

boo

we all feel that tired feeling sometimes

that empty-ish feeling

i know all about picking fights- explain to him how u are

actually he probably knows

hope u feel better soon

*hugs*

Sting said...

You need a break. I think this is a phase, maybe that crazy unilag has tired u out.

xsn therapist said...

babes...u knw wat, methinks u need to cut urself from slack, first of all, u need to reduce ur activity on fb, u may wonder wtf is this bish talkin abt? but jus try it for a week for staarters and ul begin to c the difference, there's too much going on around u, grapplin fro ur attention,plus u nedd to spend more 'us' time with ur boo, he lovs u to pieces, jus take out time to be alone and rest a lil, b4 u knw, ul b refreshed and av a nnu lease on life, i rebuke any spirit of sabotage oh!!!

Miss Natural said...

awww I agree, I think you need a break. This sounds like a bad case of writer's block. pele. I agree that you should talk to your boo, nothing like his support to get you going and make you feel better.

Sir Scribbles II said...

Laide babe I know how u feel jo...sometimes I just feel like standing in one place and letting everything else pass, we all get this way so it's noot just you, what you need is a seriously break from ur normal life, u don't want to write then don't, miss it for a while and you'll see that it'll get better, don't even read a novel, simply take a break. change ur surrounding, ur clothes ur name if you have to and u'll see that u'll appreciate ur former self better

chayoma said...

its a phase... it too shall pass!
Hang in there and no matter what you do, dnt drive your sweetrat away!

OPTIMISTIC_alyzzz said...

eya
sorry, dont worry too much about it, its a normal thing o feel like taht at times, we are women, u are just having mood swings, what u need is a day off, a day doing what u love best and eating some comfort food.dont forget the comfort food, may i suggest a trip to debonairs on adeola odeku, they have the best pizza in lagos and dont forget a large jar of blue bunny icecream sure to get u back to ur normal self.....
good luck sweetie.

Qube The Wordsmith said...

u finally updated lik i said...babes just take it easy ok? evry will b good

bArOquE said...

XSN, how na? hang in there ok, i'm sure if you're careful enough you wont self destruct...however, maybe some excitement, do something wild if you must & make sure you have fun...holla

pink-satin said...

hey sweetie we all feel like that sometime...give yourself time! perhaps there is some underlying reason why you feel this way? pele..hang in there

Ms. Catwalq said...

welcome to the world of lethargy

NigerianDramaQueen said...

First of all, I almost wasn't sure if this is your blog! I miss the old blog look!!!
Don't worry....sometimes I don't feel like writing either. It just means you need to take a break and chill!!

Funms-the rebirth said...

take a deep breath hun....... u need to refresh..... leave everything for now, dont worry about updating or anything.... focus on enjoying urself and not worry about anybody or anything.......it will pass hun

~Sirius~ said...

Oh well this goes to show, you are a normal being.............

LG said...

hmm' u tooo?? laide abegoo

blogoratti said...

Eya sorry, hang in there -keep your head up always*

Woomie O! said...

pms?
cheer up.

Naughty Eyes said...

Lethargy...
I can relate with what you're going through...
Haven't been able to do updates myself for more than a month now. I'm hoping things will work out right for all of us in the end.
Take care and it will be alright.

Naija Idol said...

get ur ass up and do sumtin lady!!!!!. lol. who b sweerat again?? ive missed a lot o. where will i start from??? hmmm..

deola said...

It happens once in a while. Just take it easy and be cool

olu said...

You want to quit blogging? Arrgh! What kind of thought is that?! Just take it easy, OK? We still need you around.

Beulah! said...

Pls oh! dont be lethargic, i atill need u writing...lol

Pele, the feeling will pass, hopefully...

Tears said...

It's a phase hun...you'd get over it!

Osondu Nnamdi Awaraka said...

Maybe you need to just relax, take a break, rest. I'm sure you can get over this feeling of tiredness. Life's a struggle you know...forget that people take getting out of bed in the morning for granted. That takes willpower when you're blue.


All the best. Cheer up!

Tommie said...

Cheer up n hav fun!))
Btw, I love d new color theme.

The Girl with the Red Hair said...

Girl thanks for stopping by my blog. I guess you are feeling this way mostly because of the stress from school; final year can reallly zap life out of one. Try a new appraoch to your writing, probaly read a new book.whatever you do please, abeg do not let your love for writing to vanish.

Nefertiti said...

how late of me... sorry to hear u feel blue. Have you tried having a good cry and praying? It works for me sometimes. I know this too shall pass. Take care, babes!

Pelli said...

Still lethargic?
No worries, go watch some comedy and if Tyler Perry's "Madea Goes to Jail" doesn't make U at least crack a smile, something(s) is/are definitely wrong.
Get up soon gal.
Ciao.

NaijaBabe said...

The feeling soon goes away...just try to get out of it.
Pele

Pelli said...

Stilllllllllllllllllll??????????????
Oya snap out of it jawwwwww

Temite said...

oh sorry dear. If you dont want to do anything then dear I suggest you DONT do anything! It works. take a personal day where you do NOTHING and see how it goes. But then again you wrote this a while ago so you probably arent feeling that way anylonger. XOXO andpls update . hehehe I couldnt help it.

scarletboy said...

u seriously need a break, go to ur villa or something... who knows it myt be helpful...

Simi Speaks said...

hope u r feeling much beta! :-)

NaijaShakespeare said...

lets see what you have written after the eya,sorry and encoragements...go on, bring it on!

olu said...

I hope you're feeling better. Miss you big!